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(no subject) [Oct. 6th, 2007|08:04 pm]
Lila
I'm going to Afghanistan in August/Jordan & Syria in May
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activism [Oct. 3rd, 2007|11:58 pm]
Lila
[Current Mood |cynicalcynical]

I feel like a failure as an activist. The entire time I've been in college I haven't made a single difference. I haven't helped win a campaign or motivate an action or anything. I feel like all the work I do with Jobs with Justice here is go to meetings,I haven't had a chance to show them that I can be a real activst too. I feel like a little kid at a meeting waving my hand around and shouting "look at me! I know what I'm doing! (sort of) I want to help! get me while I'm still an optimistic,idealistic kid!"

and it doesn't do any good. My life in high school was activism,here's it's all about being social with lots of meetings thrown in. I can't motivate myself to really participate in on campus stuff,even SLAP because it feels useless. We're just a bunch of privledged college students trying to change the working situation tens of thousands of miles away.

I need a change. This isn't working for me. This whole last year I've been fine with just being a minimal activist,I keep telling myself I need to focus on school and activism can come later. And yes,I need to focus on school,I'm paying enough for it. But I cannot stand idly by and not do anything. I don't need more meetings or more committees,I need more action. I think I'm going to try and work for the Laborers Union,I've been offered a job both in Seattle and Portland with them,I just hope I can make it work out.That may not count as "college activism" but I'll be making a difference.



I had a bad meeting today and I needed to get all this out. I'm sure it makes no sense but I feel so utterly useless and lost and not at all like myself. Life is so good otherwise.
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1 year [Jun. 6th, 2007|10:41 am]
Lila
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 it's been one year since Andy died.

It's hard to believe and deal with. I wish he wasn't dead,like everyone else.

I can't stop thinking "what if it had been Max instead?" It just as easily could have been him. I don't know what I would have done.

Andy,I miss you,everyone misses you. I hope you're having a blast doing whatever it is that you're doing now,but we still wish you were here.

today will be filled with Byways & hanging with Ceci(I'm kidnapping her from school) and then BBQ with Max,etc. to remember Andy.


lila
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it's been a while [May. 14th, 2007|09:25 am]
Lila
[Current Mood |accomplishedaccomplished]

well, my first year in college is almost over,it's very exciting. only 3 more weeks of school, then 2 days of finals and i'm home on the 4th or 5th!

I'm so excited about this summer. Max & I are going to live together for a lot of it-either in a room we're going to fix up in his basement or at my house. we can't afford to get a real place together,but hopefully next year.

i might have a job as a secretary at SEIU 49(awesome union) and at victoria's secret. We shall see. Making money this summer will be very nice,it is much needed to help pay for college.



friday is our two year anniversary. i can't believe it's been that long. i keep thinking back to that first time we went swing dancing and my goofy,giggly, girly post about how happy i was that he was there. it seems so surreal,in a really good way.


don't really have too much to say,but i hope i can see most of you when i get home. wish me luck with hall council president elections today,and i hope you're all having the same gorgeous weather we are right now!

love,
lila
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(no subject) [Feb. 28th, 2007|12:43 am]
Lila
so I realized what's been missing from college.

It's been absolutely amazing so far,don't get me wrong. Everything seems to be working out with classes, friends,and espeically Max.

But there's a reason I've been so out of it this quarter. I haven't been doing enough activism. I cannot just do school and social stuff,I have to be doing something to better the world or else I get physically agitated and upset.

But now I am. I've been nominated to be The Student Rep on the Exec board of Jobs with Justice here. that means I'd be the only student on the JwJ board for the entire state of Washington. *eeeeeeeeeeeek*

I'm the student rep to a committee that's going to make a ruling about the Designated Suppliers Program: this program our local SLAP group is trying to implement here that would really enforce anti-sweatshop policies for UW.

I'm starting a Radical Cheerleading group and next week I'm going to be on the radio to talk about it.


It feels so good. I feel like I've found my place in the world yet again. I couldn't be happier for many reasons(mostly because of Max),but life is just so good.

I was upset about the election,as that last post showed. But then Max & my dad asked why it was so important when there are bigger & better things out there. That's true. Being hall council Prez won't change the world. and that's exactly what I want to do.

anyway,love to everyone!!!
Lila
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beware: this is a sappy,feeling sorry for myself entry [Feb. 26th, 2007|07:08 pm]
Lila
I lost the election. I was running for hall council president because ours resigned.

I have yet to win anything I've run for. I should just stop. This sucks. I absolutely hate this feeling because it feels like whatever I've got or whatever I've done,it isn't good enough.

fuck.
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life...is fantastic! [Feb. 13th, 2007|08:12 pm]
Lila
[Current Mood |ecstaticecstatic]

really,it is!
I'm in such an amazing mood right now.
I'm going to Corvallis to see Max on Thursday. I get to spend 4 nights there,which will be great. I miss him a lot and it's only been two weeks. I think we've gotten closer because we've both settled down into our seperate college situations and now we want to share all of it with each other.


enough sappy babble.

what i really really want to do this summer:
-be an organizer with SEIU(distinct possibility)
-go to this language study program in Yemen,Jordan, or Morocco(if i did that,i'd only have 1 continent left to visit!!!) (i don't think the feds would give me a scholarship to do this...)
-be in portland and spend it working(either as an organizer,or at a sex shop. either would be fun) and spending time with max
-travel with max

ok,i'm so so so excited,i should focus this energy on something useful


Lila
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might as well... [Jan. 29th, 2007|12:54 pm]
Lila
Reply to this and I will...
1)Tell you why I friended you.
2)Associate you with a song/movie.
3)Tell a random fact about you.
4)Tell my first memory of you.
5)Associate you with an animal/fruit.
6)Ask something I've always wanted to know about you.
7)In return, you MUST spread this disease in your lj.
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(no subject) [Jan. 8th, 2007|03:40 pm]
Lila
didn't get the job.


if only i had a car i could have gotten that perfect job. they told me i did great for a first timer(we had to do role playing) and that they wished they could hire me. but they can't.

fuck
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i have an interview tomorrow... [Jan. 7th, 2007|02:56 pm]
Lila
So I have an interview tomorrow,as you may have guessed from the title of this post. and I am incredibly excited for it.

It's as an organizer with SEIU (Service Employees International Union) 775 which works with home health care workers. The job would entail going around to worker's houses and talking with them about what it would mean to join the union and why it's generally a good idea.

Now if you know me at all or know anything about what I want to do in life,this is it. This is exactly what I want to be doing for the rest of my life,I want to work with people and unions and I want to be an organizer. And the fact that I may have the opportunity to do that as a freshman in college is incredibly exciting.

I'm just so excited I had to tell all of you out there in LJ land. So wish me luck and I'll let you know what happens.

Lila
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